Retold

I found this pic of me in a file on my computer.  It’s pretty recent, but I don’t recall taking it.  Weird.  All I can think is that I was wearing my headset because I was either listening to music or playing World of Warcraft/talking on Ventrilo.  I think it’s probably the first, it’s been a long time since I’ve played WoW and I don’t think I have since I got my haircut.  I wonder… if I send this pic of me along, think I could get disability insurance for my tooth with the sheer power of my cuteness?  It would have to convince them, right? Ha! Okay, I have to have some kind of sense of humor about my teeth hurting or it’ll drive me nuts!

I feel so miserable lately. My tooth ache has evolved into a full blown abscessed tooth. Yesterday, I gave up when my gums swelled up and went to the dentist. I hate dentists with the fire of a thousand suns, so it was the last place I wanted to be, but I went because I’m worried about this gum swelling thing. Turns out I actually have an abscess and need meds, pain killers (oh yeah, definitely!) and to have the tooth pulled out.  I also need two fillings on the tooth right next to it.  So, I’m going to have a big hole in my mouth where that tooth was, near the front but not in the front. Then, in a few months, I’m going to have to figure out what I can do about that hole, either with a bridge, an implant, or with a partial with one tooth on it. I could let it go, but it’ll make trouble for the other teeth, or so they say.  My teeth don’t generally move that easily, but I’m taking them at their word.

There is one good thing about all this… I can’t eat. Yeah, I can’t chew because it hurts like hell. So, I’m having to eat only soft foods I can swallow with minimal chewing.  By the end of this, maybe I’ll be a few pounds lighter.  It would be nice, I mean, obviously I won’t be squeezing into a pair of rocawear jeans anytime soon (very cute jeans, by the way!), but my clothes might fit better. That’s all I can really hope for, that my clothes will fit me better. It’s not all I need to lose, but it’s a start. The dentist told me that some of my tooth pain is likely coming from grinding my teeth because he said they don’t look as bad as I thought. When I asked what could be done about that, he said I should reduce my stress, sleep well and eat better.  Eating better is a big goal (that just said, “gal” rather than goal, Freudian slip right there) for me right now.  I need to lose weight before I get any older and now I have more motivation because the dentist is telling me that eating better will reduce my tooth pain.

Motivation is awesome, even when it fails to motivate me… this, though, just might do it.

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…..`·.¸.·Kristyn