Retold

I’m tired today.  It’s days like this that I feel my age and even though I’m only 31 years old, I feel like my health isn’t as good as it should be.  My body is older than my chronological years, if that makes any sense.  I think part of the problem is depression, which I mentioned previously, because I’m feeling very vulnerable.  I’m 31 years old and I haven’t had a traditional job in more than 10 years.  It makes me worry, which makes me depressed, which makes me feel old.

I worry almost constantly about things like how I’ll save for retirement, if I’ll own a house before I’m 40, if I’ll be able to get a new car so that we have two cars, if I’m going to be able to accumulate things like social security or have social security disability insurance.  Of course, the stress from worrying is making things worse and making me more depressed.  I want more, but can’t seem to make it happen.

So, I’ve been thinking that when my freelance income picks up, I’m going to invest in an IRA through the Freelancers Union.  It’s a way for freelancers to get support and pick up things that traditional jobs offer.  Of course, freelance is technically self-employment, so freelancers have to pay for benefits.  Maybe, just maybe, doing something to take control of my now and my future will make me feel better.  I’m not just moping, I’m moping with a plan which makes me feel better about being down.  Does that make sense?  I hope so, since it makes total sense in my head.

If you’re interested in Freelancers Union, you can find them at http://freelancersunion.org.

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