Retold

I’m not sure if I told y’all, but I got approved for a little bit of financial aid over the summer at school so I can, indeed, go back!!  I’m looking forward to it.  Of course, when the summer is over, no matter how well I do, I’m going to be on financial aid suspension again because I don’t have 24 hours over the course of the year, but at least at that point I’ll be able to appeal and have some progress to show for it.  Honestly, I’m not sure how much financial aid I have left, I’m just hoping like hell it’s enough.

I’m going to take American Lit over the summer, a prospect I am looking forward to with a mix of excitement and trepidation.  Every time I’ve attempted the second half of this course (it’s split into pre 1865 and post 1865, two classes) I’ve failed to complete it.  The first time it was my fault completely, the second I dropped it because the professor I had is a complete pervert (I never take him, ever) and, on top of being very, very creepy, he wanted us to read eight full books in the course of five weeks.  That’s just unreasonable.  The third time I tried to take it was the semester from hell, Fall 2007, which I failed completely because I just plain let my burnout get the better of me and stopped going.  Hopefully, this summer, with a professor I like, it’ll be better… hopefully.

Right now I’m waiting on the admissions department because apparently, with universities, there is a LOT of red tape.  Because I took one full long semester off, I had to reapply for admissions as a readmit.  It’s BS, they almost always take the readmits, but its a hoop they force you to jump.  My hoop has been particularly large this time, I’ve had to call them several times and for stupid things like them wanting SAT or ACT scores.  I never took either test, I was a transfer four years ago when I started here, they’ve never wanted my test scores before.  They took the requirement off, but still, it’s just plain assyness on their part.

Finally, my app is showing complete and ready for review which means within the next few days, I should be able to register for summer classes!!  I’m not sure what else I’ll be taking.  They’re offering a basic psych over the summer as on online course and I was wanting to take it, but it’s full.  Big, big shock (read: sarcasm).  So, I may take tech writing or something, not sure.

For now, I’m just thrilled to be going back because I was looking long and hard at myself and I would have been done this month if I’d just stuck it out.  Assuming, of course, that I didn’t fail from burnout… which is exactly what happened.  C’est la vie!  Live, learn, move on.  That’s where I’m at right now.  I have trouble with regrets, I want to feel them and usually can’t.  The funny thing about the past is, you can’t change it so worrying about it beyond the assurance that you won’t repeat past mistakes is pointless.  Worry about this, about not graduating, is pointless.  So, rather than worrying about not graduating, I’m just going to worry about graduating sometime in the near future and take it from there!