Retold

My birthday was July 23rd. I meant to talk about it, or post this sooner, but I got sidetracked. Therefore, it is now that I present you with a short, pictorial birthday vignette!

On my 32nd birthday it did this…

I made this for dinner…

And we ate this for desert…

I can’t remember having a more amazing birthday.  Thanks to everyone who wished me well and contributed to my happiness.  I didn’t even mind turning 32!!  Happy Birthday to everyone who turned a year older in July and to all the Leo’s out there yet grow another year older.

… maybe I like making excuses!  Excuses may make me look bad,but they get me out of trouble with myself.  I should ditch the holistic dieting and start taking Phentermine 37.5!!  I could kick my carb habit with an appetite suppressant and not have to worry about that pesky willpower standing in my way!  This is a plan I could get behind.  Ugh, except saying behind reminds me that mine is enormous and needs to be worked out. Maybe the Phentermine will help that, too?!

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…..`·.¸.·Kristyn

I’ve been thinking again that I need to lose weight.  I know, I say that all the time and I never do anything about it, but this time I’m serious!  Okay, I say that every time too, don’t I?  No wonder I’m not taken seriously… I can’t even take myself seriously!  I guess my problem is that I have no idea how to lose weight.  I try, but with my thyroid fucked up it’s hard, and not just a little bit.  I want to get a treadmill, but I have no where to put it and I don’t want to move it when we move.  I could use the equipment at the school, but my agoraphobia and social anxiety make doing something humiliating, like working out in front of other people, impossible.  I want to eat better, but do you know what it costs to eat right?!  I want to take vitamins and supplements, but I never can remember to actually take them.  I even got chewable, those cute little kid ones you know, but still can’t remember to take them! Oh, and I’m crazy addicted to sweets, well okay, carbs of any sort really.

Okay, now that I’ve made every excuse in the book, I’m going to try to figure out how to fix those situations.  I could maybe use the treadmill at the school if I went when there weren’t many people around, like early in the mornings.  I could maybe find ways to eat better that are less expensive.  I could set the alarm on my phone to remind me to take vitamins. I could still eat sweets and carbs, in moderation.  D’oh… this is where I fail, you see I tell myself that, but it’s not true.  I can’t eat sweets and carbs in moderation.  Even if I could bring myself to do all the other stuff, that I can’t do.  I love sweets, I crave them like crazy, and what does Matt do?  He enables me!  He goes out and gets me my fix. I’m such a carb junkie!

Maybe I need therapy?  Okay, scratch that, I definitely need therapy, but I can’t afford it (is that another excuse?!) The MHMR has therapy on a sliding income scale, but right now everything is too much.  I’m working my ass off to make ends meet and they’re still not meeting.  I have to pay my CareCredit because they’re how I’m able to go to the dentist. Honestly, it pays to pay them because I could use that credit line to go to any dentist, doctor, chiropractor or veterinarian who takes it.  It’s a very neat thing and the bill is only like $32 a month right now, with no interest for a year!  Ooh, and it has the added bonus of being good for my credit score.  Yay!!  I think I just got side tracked… yeah, it happens easily, I have ferret syndrome.

I think the bottom line is this: If I’m going to diet, I have to stop making excuses and get therapy!  Look at that, blogging can resolve issues.

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…..`·.¸.·Kristyn

So, I’m at something of an impasse with my teeth.  I decided, begrudgingly, that I’ll have a root canal instead of having the tooth pulled.  The problem is, I’m terrified to get this done given the trouble I had with the last root canal and the cost difference between a root canal and an extraction are ridiculous!  Point in case, the root canal is going to be $1985 with the crown. The extraction was going to cost me $135. It’s just silly how much difference there is between the two, but they convinced me that anything I could have done to replace the tooth, like a partial, an implant or a bridge would be just as expensive, if not more so, than the root canal.  Okay, sold.

Then, I had to figure out how to pay for it and I think I’ve got that worked out now, too.  I was going to get two fillings, but I’m going to wait on the fillings.  I’ll pay for the root canal with my care credit and fork over the rest, the other $1000, from my financial aid.  Then, I’ll invest in dental insurance (not nearly as expensive as health or term life insurance) and go for a check up and get fillings or whatever. Blarg, tooth care is a pain in the ass!  I think I’ll be happy when I’m done with this root canal business and hopefully –fingers crossed– the stupid thing will fit better than my other crown. If not, I’m never ever having another root canal as long as I live, screw the costs!

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…..`·.¸.·Kristyn