Retold

I’ve been trying to work today, but an getting little done because the place I make most of my income is having database errors. It’s frustrating and makes it hard to stay motivated to work. Just when I’m on a roll the system decides to act like an asshole. This never happened, then they started rolling out a ton of changes and the database seems like it has errors every two days now. They should really work on fixing all the bugs in the current system before unleashing a whole new host of problems!

This whole thing is driving me to smoke, and I quit that years ago (wonder if Matt has cartridges for his electronic cigarettes? It’s got to be healthier, and less expensive, than actual cigarettes, right?).  Maybe I should be driven to drink instead, we have a fridge full of wine!  Might even help my productivity… yeah, not a joke, actually.  When I’ve had a glass of wine, I always write easier.  Might be that all my grown up inhibitions about what I’m putting down on the (virtual) page are less inhibited when I’ve had a glass or two.  Of course, it could also be that what I write when I’m under the influence of a glass of wine isn’t as good.  I don’t know, might be that I should test this theory?!

Anyway, in leiu of the ability to work at the best paying place, I’m going to take the opportunity to get some stuff done for the other sites.  It’s a funny thing, I enjoy working for the other sites more, but they pay less, so I put them off in favor of making an immediate living.  The other sites pay residual income, so the more I get up on them, the better my pay will eventually be, but it’s hard to make the time when I could be writing the stuff that pays right now.  I suppose I’m a part of the instant gratification culture. I want it and I want it now!

Okay, on that note, I’m off to actually get some work done (probably).

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It’s been a long day. I literally worked from 1p.m. this afternoon until 10p.m. tonight.  I did take a break to make dinner around 8p.m. but otherwise, I’ve been working.  I got a lot done, but not as much as I was hoping, so I’m a little bit disappointed.  I’m also feeling a bit like the wrinkles are forming on my face as we speak (might wind down by searching wrinkle cream reviews to get rid of those work/tired related wrinkles. Ha!).  Yeah, so I was going to say something but my brain’s fried right now, so I’m off to do veg in front of the TV.  It’s been a long day and I have another long day ahead of me tomorrow.

Good night.

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It seems like it has been a truly frustrating day all around.  Some of my twitter pals are having at least as hard a day as I am, and here I am writing a blog about it.  I’ve done some more searching and come up with nothing, it’s been several unproductive hours and since I took yesterday off, I have to work today, at least a little bit.  I guess I’ll keep at it until I come up with something to work on, even if it’s not ideal, and get some work out.  I have one article on the editor queue, which I did a rewrite for, and will probably be rejected, so I’m not terribly pleased about that.  And yeah, I know I’m complaining, but that’s but blogging is for, right?!

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I sat down to claim titles today on one of the sites where I write and I’m coming up with absolutely nothing write-able.  It’s discouraging because I have a lot of bills this month and no way to pay them if I can’t work.  My thoughts are going to getting an outside job, but that’s not even feasible because when school’s back in in the Fall, I’m going to be working on campus.  I’d get a job, only to dump it in a month and a half.  That’s not fair to any prospective employer, especially given how long it takes to find work right now.  I’d just barely get started in time to call it quits.  It’s a no go, but working at home is giving me fits.  I’m working my ass off for almost nothing a lot of the time and I’m starting to wonder why?

I mean, I’m going to need anti wrinkle eye creams and dye to cover the gray hairs this whole process is giving me. It’s insane and I’m starting to get so frustrated and I’m thinking that instead of my plan to work from home full time after college, I may just look for a day job.  I don’t know if I have the discipline to work from home full time, and relying on the system where I currently work isn’t going to cut it.  The editors don’t work fast enough, even when I do, and I’m starting to wonder how anyone makes a full-time living of it.  I mean, they may write 15 titles a day, but if the editors can’t keep up, then how do they make anything of it? I may change my mind, in fact, I know I probably will because being a writer is my dream.  Being a freelance writer is what I want to do with my life, I just need to look for more lucrative projects.

I’m at a loss as to what to do most of the time, but I’m pushing forward and making it work right now and chalking this whole thing up to a learning experience.  I’m also going to start looking for magazines that accept freelance submissions and pull some things together for that.  Might be that if I expand my horizons, it’d be easier.  I also think that when Matt’s working, too, and the whole weight of paying all the bills isn’t directly on me, I’ll have an easier time of it.  Right now, there was no start-up time, so every time I get paid (and right now that’s twice a week) the money is gone almost instantly.  On top of that, we’re at the limit of our overdraft with the bank.  I’m clearly not a very good provider.

Okay, pouring out all this frustration isn’t helping anything, so I’m off to search for more titles.  Hoping I’ll be able to scrape enough together to be productive today.

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